This is a letter I am writing regarding a situation that happened a couple of days ago. Written to a family member that we don’t see that often. I’m not sure whether I will send it or not yet, let’s see how I go.
I am writing this letter in answer to what has happened between us recently, mainly for my own clarity and understanding more than anything, but I would be lying if I didn’t say I was hoping you would gain some clarity and benefit from it, but I understand, it’s unlikely you will hear anything I have to say.
The first thing I would like to speak to is your opinion that I’m “crazy, delusional, live in fairyland, and have no idea about the real world”. This almost makes me laugh when I think about it, because there’s so much truth in that, although it’s not very nice to speak to people in such ways, especially when you’re staying in their house as a guest. Let me enlighten you about what you actually meant by that.
We are in totally different vibrational, emotional places regarding almost all subjects that are important to us. I do my very best to see the positive in life, whereas you’re naturally focused on everything you feel hasn’t and isn’t working and blaming everyone else around you for it. I allow you to rant about everything that you feel is bad in life from politics, to the place we live, to people you feel are useless and have no value in life. I learnt many years ago there was no point bringing up the positives regarding whatever you were giving your attention to, for that just made you try harder to convince me into your way of thinking, and as you know, I am not easily convinced out of my way of thinking, which infuriates you.
I let you go until eventually, you speak of something I cannot stay silent on, for instance, the fact that the new generation of children need more controlling and “a good smack never hurt anyone”. I think that’s fairly rich coming from a person that never ever raised their hand to any of their children, but left it to his wife to do.
Anyway, the point I’m making is we sit at opposite ends of the emotional scale on almost every subject. So it’s not surprising you think I’m delusional and live in fairyland because you cannot see the world I see, for you do not have access to it because you’ve spent your life focused on the opposite of everything that is good therefore that is all you have access to.
And in answer to me not knowing what’s happening in the real world, I’m very aware of what is going on in this world, I have just chosen to focus on the best of it, I have chosen to feel as good as I can therefore I do my best not to focus on what I’m not wanting or things that are happening that I feel bad about, if I’m finding it hard to maintain a good vibrational place about something, I make an effort to move to a better feeling place or I don’t think about it.
I also laughed thinking about you telling me I live in the past; I often find it difficult to think what I did last week let alone 15 or 20 years ago. But of course, you have a wonderful memory for everything you think I have done in the past that was wrong. You will never get me to acknowledge such things, for I know the intentions I have whenever I do anything, and they are always good.
You will never pull me down to your negative miserable place regarding life I assure you, this is my life, it is my journey, who do you think you are to judge me, or anyone.
There are so many things that have happened in your life I could easily explain, for it’s easy for me to see how and why they’ve happened, but I would never tell you, for the outcome would be:
1. You would not hear the truth of what I say, but use it as more evidence of how crazy I am. Hehehe….
2. You would hear the truth of what I say, and it would bring you to your knees when you realise what you’ve created in your own life.
So where to from here? You are who you are, and I am who I am, and although I’ve remained hopeful in the last 20 years, I feel it’s unlikely we’ll find any common ground because even though we’re both changing every day, it’s still in the opposite direction to each other. I have decided you are no longer welcome in my home, healthy conversation and disagreements are a normal part of life, but when it deteriorates to name-calling and nastiness, this is unacceptable, and I will not accept someone doing this in my own home and in front of your own grandchildren.
I am unsure if we will speak again while you are in this physical life, but I look forward to speaking with you once you have made your transition back to Non-Physical. Oh, how we’ll laugh about all that went on here.
Well, there’s my letter. After reading it through I feel quite sure I won’t send it because I don’t think it would probably do much good. It was fun to write though.
And so our journey continues….